I hadn’t realized how hard the holidays are going to be for me this year. Our church is preparing a Thanksgiving dinner to go, wit all the delicious stuff – potatoes, stuffing, buns – that I can’t have. I feel awful that this bothers me so much, because Caroline is trying so hard to make delicious food, and she’s succeeding, the food she makes is delicious. But I still feel I lost an old friend with all the foods I can’t have. I feel as though no one else is struggling. All I hear is people saying, “Oh yeah, it was hard for a while, but now I don’t even want that stuff anymore.” Maybe not, but I do. I honestly don’t think I’ve gone for a month without potatoes before, ever, since I started eating them. Maybe in six months or a year these cravings will go away, but they haven’t now. I so wish I hadn’t opened that e-mail from church. It was stupid of me … I wasn’t thinking, I just thought oh, they’re going to make the church Thanksgiving dinner workable for us. Everyone els, yes. But us, no.